I need to say this but I need to be vague as well.
I am so incredibly lost right now. The synapses on and around my limbic system are firing and misfiring in a brainstorm unseen in my brain. I know the activity is swirling around and I feel it messing with other parts of my brain and body, causing me to feel torn up inside and out on a physical level.
I know the reasons behind this mess, I noticed the triggers as they happened.
But what I am still unsure of is the root cause.
Was it caused by you? Or is it still stemming from my own history of fear and inadequacies?
It's something I need to figure out and until then, I need to hide it from you.