Saturday, December 10, 2011

Storm Damage

I need to say this but I need to be vague as well.

I am so incredibly lost right  now. The synapses on and around my limbic system  are firing and misfiring in a brainstorm unseen in my brain. I know the activity is swirling around and I feel it messing with other parts of my brain and body, causing me to feel torn up inside and out on a physical level.

I know the reasons behind this mess, I noticed the triggers as they happened.

But what I am still unsure of is the root cause.

Was it caused by you? Or is it still stemming from my own history of fear and inadequacies?

It's something I need to figure out and until then, I need to hide it from you.